Nearly from last one month I am regularly reading whatever stuff is getting published here and today I have started writing down my first sexual experience. At present I am happily married and well settled in a joint family but the fact is that it was not my husband who actually deflowered me, I have a past which is certainly not at all clean and clear, and here I want to share that hidden truth of my life.
I was fucked for money well before my marriage and I was introduced into the world of sex by our neighbor and my mom’s so called friend Sheela Didi. Sheela Didi was living alone beside us from very long time, since she was divorced by her husband.
The house in which she was living was her inherited property and belonged to her father, as she was the only child of her parents, after getting divorce she was living here while working in some construction company in accounts department.
For introduction I will say though it happened to me few years before my marriage but still I remember each and every moment of that time span very clearly, may be because in a way it was hardest time of my life. Although it was rough phase of my life even then there is something which is attracting me to recall that time again and again and after getting in touch of this blog
desire of remembering my that time has rose very high and that is why by writing all this I want to relive those moments. But before detailing my first sexual encounter I would like to mention that names, places and everything which can reveal my identity is changed, second I accept in the very beginning of my write up that I am very weak in this language especially grammar
and I am expecting that readers of this site will consider this fact before giving remarks in the comments column. Now to start my life experience I will say that I am Juhi, fair and good looking female who can be considered sexy as well, at present living in Delhi NCR with my husband and in-laws, basically belong to small town of U.P. Time I am talking about, I was around 20-21 and my body was just ready to experience manly treatment.
Because of financial crunch after doing first year of my graduation I was thinking about ending up my studies. I can easily say that from the time I was conscious to know things around, my father was more or less non-working, he was deeply and somewhat madly involved into drinking and gambling and opposite to that my mother was working up to her maximum ability.
Apart from doing some clerical job in some private company, later at home she use to make pickles and Papads to sell in limited area. All in all I grew up in somewhat financial struggle and as time passed our problems went on increasing because my mother was failing in protecting her hard earned money from my farther, he was not bothered about my school fee or even for the basic food we needed.
Later I was almost at the verge of appearing into my senior secondary examinations, which is 10+2 when suddenly, my father expired because of overdose of some narcotic. Although since my childhood he was always a liability on mom even then it was big shock for us. Anyhow life moved on and now we, I and my mom were getting into some financial comfort but very soon another shock staggered our senses.
The house in which we were living was mortgaged by my father for money. My mom was totally unaware of this fact and now we were suppose to pay few lacs to nearby co-operative bank to release papers and at that time we could not see anything which could save us. After disposing of that property once we thought about going to our uncle’s place (maternal ) but both of my uncles behaved reluctantly on this.
We tried borrowing money from my father’s brother but because of my father we did not had healthy relation with them so they also denied helping us. In that span tiny thing which went bit positive for us was anyhow by requesting or you can say begging my mom succeeded in taking couple of more months to pay off from bank manager, but still I will say that all in all we could not see any way out of this problem as time was running fast.
At that time I was nearly at the end of first year of graduation and I could clearly see that I will not be able continue my studies as now after losing a house my mom will be having a liability of paying off the rent. Now after detailing bit of my personal and financial crises, I would like to take readers straight to the incident. As I said in the beginning, I was bought into fucking for money by Sheela Didi.
Although she was much younger then my mom but she can be considered my mom’s closest friend, she was having very down to earth nature and I have always considered her my elder sister and use to address her Didi. When this dreadful fear of losing our house was running in our life,
apart from our relatives to whom we asked for help it was just Sheela Didi who knew everything happening around us and since she knew that we are in trouble, she was the only one who promised us to help but what she could do was few thousands which were not at all sufficient to save our house and panic was increasing every day.
I remember it was Friday early morning when I went to her house to borrow some sugar and she asked me about the status of money, whether my mom succeeding in arranging money from somewhere and I said no to that. She gave me sugar which I asked for and once again asked me and this time it was about my studies, that how it is going and I sarcastically replied that, soon it will also end.
She told me not to worry about my studies and assured me that she will look after my fees. I smiled mildly to thank her with dewed eyes, Sheela Didi looked into my eyes for few seconds and somewhat gave a thought to what she was about to speak and finally spoke with some hesitation, while looking straight into my eyes,
from her side it was the beginning of talking to me about that indecent proposal and I still remember that whole conversation word to word and her first sentence in this context was “waise tum chaaho to sab theek ho sakta hai…..” (Everything can be fine, but if you agree) I remained silent with a question mark on my face and before I would have asked her about what she said,
Sheela Didi spoke again “hum do-teen din se soch rahe the tumse ye baat karne ki” (I was thinking about talking to you from last 2-3 days) “kya?” I asked her back in curiosity, once again for few seconds she went silent and looked into my innocent eyes, I think she could not decide how to speak to me about this and in that confusing mind set she asked me “tum collage jaa rahi ho na?”
I said yes to it, “ok..evening mein baat karte hain” she tried to avoid talking to me in that context at that moment but I was eager to know so I asked her again, but she sent me back to my home and told me to come after getting ready for collage and specifically told me not to talk to my mom about this.
I came back to her place after leaving my home for collage, by now Sheela Didi was also more or less ready to go to her work place. She made me sit in her dining area and started talking to me about that once again she started with a same sentence “Dekho tum chaaho to sab theek ho sakta hai…” with same sort of hesitation and then after a small pause she added “saara paisa arrange ho jaayega”
(whole money will be arranged) “Kaise?” I asked her back “Dekho tum humari chhoti behan jaisi ho… aur humen tumse se ye kahte hue achha to nahi lag raha par ab situation hi kuch aisi hai” (See you are like my younger sister and I really don’t feel like talking to you all this, but situation is just like that)
Sheela Didi spoke before going to main course and I continued looking at her as if I am waiting for her to speak exactly what she wants to speak and finally she uttered “Dekho tum ladki ho…tumko thoda sa compromise karna padega” (you are a girl, and you have to compromise a bit) her words skipped my heart beat,
I somewhat guessed what she meant with that but still I wanted to listen her and I remained silent and once again Sheela Didi spoke, rather asked me whether I have understood by saying “tum samajh rahi ho hum kya kah rahe hain” and I moved my head bit in yes. “tumhe maalom hai na ye kya hota hain…aur kaise hota hai?”
Sheela Didi asked me again and this time I remained unmoved and just continued looking into her eyes with a pounding heart, Sheela Didi spoke again and somewhat explained me exactly what it is and how it goes by saying “Aadmi log humari Yoni mein apna Ling daalte hain aur enjoy karte hain” (males put there gentile in our Vargina and enjoy)
and again remained silent for few seconds and then she asked me again in soft voice “maaloom hai na tumko?” this time I moved my head in yes and like before continued looking at her face and Sheela Didi spoke again, it was a long statement and as I said I remember everything clean and clear her exact words were
“dekho humen to aur koi raasta nazar nahi aata…humse jitna ho sakta hai hum help kar dengei…par uss se kuch kaam nahi banega”. I swallowed my saliva while accepting at least this fact that the amount which she can give us is not at all sufficient. “Soch lo…evening tak jawab de dena….aur iss baare mein apni Maa se mat baat karna” (think about it… answer me by the evening… and don’t talk to your mom about all this).
Once again I moved my head in yes and our conversation ended there for the time being, Sheela Didi got up and moved to her work place and before leaving once again she tried to comfort me for my studies and spoke “apni padhai ki tension matt lena..wo hum sambhal lenge”.
After that I moved to collage and that day totally failed to concentrate on my studies, at that time from my side it was certainly No but don’t know why I still wanted to talk to Sheela Didi about this. I came back home well before Sheela Didi and remained in my room without eating anything,
I wanted to sleep but my eyes were wide open may be because I could not stop thinking about Sheela Didi’s proposal and truly speaking, while being alone in the house I somewhat visualized myself getting fucked. Those days porn movies and internet were not easily accessible, at least not to girls like me and technically whatever I knew about this man woman relation,
I knew it through my text book of Biology of I think 9th or 10th standard, through my friends and whatever Hindi movies showed me. Slowly with every passing minute thought of getting fucked started empowering my senses and I started getting wet and as I was bit into masturbating I tried to end up my urge and calmed down after some rubbing of my fuckhole and slept for a while.
When I got up Sheela Didi was yet to come but not much time was left, I waited for her in the balcony and finally saw her coming. By the time I thought about going to her place my mom also arrived from her work lace and I remained at home.
After some time Sheela Didi herself came to my place with some snacks and had tea with my mom and told her to keep faith on god and after chit chatting with my mom for nearly half an hour she told me to come to her place in front of mom to help her in some way.
I came to her place and once again we were sitting on same chairs and this time Sheela Didi started the topic by saying “fir kya socha tumne?” I wanted to say clear No even then I took a longer way and spoke “Mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha…main ye sabb nahi karna chaahti” (I cannot think properly…I don’t want to do all this) for which Sheela Didi replied “Hum bhi nahi chaahte tum ye karo…par aur koi raasta nahi hai”
(even I don’t want you to do all this..but there is no way out) I accepted her statement without uttering anything, just from my expressions. Once again Sheela Didi started and this time she answered me whatever questions were running in my mind and she started by saying “Dekho hum tumko RANDI nahi banna rahe…”
(See I am not trying to make you prostitute) I was bit shocked with a word RANDI she used, but she continued “tumko sirf ek aadmi ke saath baar baar sona hai…aur tumhaare saath jo karega wo hi karega” (you just have to sleep with one man again and again…and whatever will happen with you, only he will) once again while listening her I was just looking at Sheela Didi’s face with pounding heart.
Sheela Didi sensed my fear and caressed my cheek with affection and spoke again “Hum tumko kisi galat Aadmi ke pass nahi bhej rahe…..wo bahut achhe hain” (I am not sending you to any wrong man, he is very nice) with a small pause Sheela Didi spoke again “aur hum koshish karenge uss time pe tumhare saath hi rahen”.
I don’t know if I was shocked with her statement, she meant that she will try to be with me at that time, but in that confused state I asked her about that person to whom she is sending me to get fucked by asking “kaun hai wo?” “Humare senior hain…Kartik Ji” once again with a tiny pause she spoke again and detailed me bit about that person “rank mein senior hain….age mein humse thode chhote hain…”
Sheela Didi was ending there but with bit of smile she spoke again “aur tumhari tarah wo bhi humko Didi hi bulate hain”. That was bit surprising for me and I asked her back “aap unse aisi baat karoge?” (you will talk all this to him. Once again Sheela Didi smiled a bit and went silent for few seconds and then spoke
“Dekho tum apne liye Haan bolo ya Na bolo…lekin humari ye baat kisi ko matt batana” (see whatever you decide for yourself, don’t reveal my this secret to anybody) “kya?” I asked her back “hum unke saath regularly SAMBHOG karte hain”. That was another shock for me; Sheela Didi told me that she is sexually involved with that person whose name was Kartik.
As such I could not think of uttering anything at that instant and once again Sheela Didi spoke again “Dekho hum ye mainly apni body ki desire poori karne ke liye karte hain… “ “ab wo humare senior hain to company se thoda bahut benefit dilwa dete hain” Sheela Didi paused there but then spoke again
“rather unki wajah se humko bahut saare benefit mille hain.. unhonne humko company mein permanent karwa diya hai… humko Bonus milna shuru ho gaya hai … PF ka bhi benefit milta hai...paid leaves milti hain…aur bol rahe the iss saal humen increment bhi achha dilwaayenge…. isske alawa wo humko gifts bhi dete rahte hain”
Sheela Didi detailed me whatever benefits she got from her senior by getting herself fucked and I continued listening her. Truly speaking for me it was altogether new face of Sheela Didi, I knew her as a god fearing female who even never skip morning worship and never use to go out of house without a spiritual Tilak on her forehead, but in real life she was somewhat came out as slut.
I was somewhat lost for few seconds and while looking at her face I could not think of anything accept this that she lays on the bed of her senior for professional benefits. Somewhere all this was charging me as well, I was feeling bit aroused and could feel bit of wetness in my panties from all this but still there was some sort of fear which was dwelling in my mind and I was yet
not convinced to say yes to get on bed with a person she was talking about but certainly I wanted to talk to her about all this and next moment Sheela Didi asked me same thing, that what all I want to know by asking “aur jo kuch jaan na chahti ho…freely puchh low” and next thing I asked her was about the money I needed and my question was “will he give me whole amount”
and my words were “wo itne pasie de denge?” and Sheela Didi’s reply was “hum baat karenge….I think de dena chahiye….unke liye koi badi baat nahi hai… Civil engineer hain aur unke income ke do teen source hain….ek lakh to yehin se lete hain”. ( I will talk to him, I think he will give it…it is not an big issue for him…he is civil engineer and he has 2-3 sources of income…he is getting one lack from here only)
At that time as I heard his salary amount I was stunned and to convince me further Sheela Didi spoke again “Biwi bache hain nahin…single hain…bas life ko enjoy karna chahte hain”. For a while Sheela Didi ended there and asked me if I want to have water and I said yes to it. She made lemonade and I gulped whole glass within couple of minutes as my throat was totally dried up.
Once again Sheela Didi started by saying “Vishwaas karo….agar aur koi raasta hota to hum tumhen ye karne ke liye kabhi nahi kahte” (trust me if we would have any other way…then I would have not spoken to you about this) she paused and then spoke again “aur hum Kartik Ji ko achhe se jaante hain…. iss liye tumhen unke pass lejaa rahe hain…. tumhen koi problem nahi hogi……wo bahut achhe hain”
(And I know Kartik Ji very well…that is why I am taking you to him…you will not face any problem…he is very nice) “achhe log aisa kaam karte hain kya?” (Nice people do all this?) I replied back in reflex and my words pinched her and Sheela Didi’s expressions changed a bit and she spoke in somewhat teaching tone,
“dekho…aajkal koi Mahatma nahi hota… aur sex har ek ko chahiye hota hai… humen bhi chahiye tha iss liye humne unko haan bola tha” (See…these days no one is saint…and everyone needs sex…even I needed…that is why I said yes to him) Sheela Didi really did not liked statement I passed for her senior and she continued detailing me about him
“Kartik Ji RANDIBAAJI nahi karte… wo sirf humare saath karte hain aur hum sirf unke saath karte hain…aur wo bhi apni marzi se”. I could feel that Sheela Didi was hardcore fan of this person and I was somewhat realizing my mistake by saying that but I remained silent and continued listening Sheela Didi while looking at her facial expressions and she spoke again in same aggressive tone
“aur abhi humen ye bhi nahi patta wo haan bhi bolenge ya nahi…..unhone humen ek baar kaha tha ki unko Virgin ladki ke saath karne ka bahut mann hai, bass iss liye hum thode se hopeful hain”. (Right now I don’t even know whether he will agree for this or not…once he told me that he wants to have it with Virgin girl…that is why I am hopeful).
I moved my eyes from her face to accept my mistake and that calmed her down a bit. As I looked up, once again at her face and Sheela Didi asked me “tum Kunwaari to ho na….?kahin kisi ladke saath kuch ki to nahi ho?” (I hope you are Virgin…or you have done something with any guy) and I replied with a no in low voice along with knobbing my head.
Once again Sheela Didi told me to think saying “Soch low…kal subah batta dena” (think…tell me in the morning). Certainly by then it was not yes from my side, but something was positive in me about this and may be that is why I asked her that how I will justify the money I will get, to my mom.
For that Sheela Didi said that she will manage all that and told me that she will tell my mom that she has taken a interest free loan from her office and she will pay it off slowly. Then she told me that her senior Kartik Ji might not pay whole amount in one shot, so for the moment after adding her savings she will somehow manage at least 25% of whole amount
and she was somewhat sure that if we will pay off 25% amount at the moment then we will get some more time from the bank and further told me that even Kartik Ji can also help to get us more time because he knows many senior people in that bank. After spending some more time finally I came back home and that is why my mom called me to help her in kitchen,
unless I would have stayed there for one more hour and the way Sheela Didi was trying to convince I would have said yes then and there. Once again when I was about to leave Sheela Didi told me not to tell all this to my mom and then added one nasty statement in this context which was certainly truth and her words were
“Dekho ek na ek din to ye hona hi hai…tum Shaadi ke baad apne patti ke saath to SAMBHOG karogi hi….” “aur uska kya patta…aaj kal koi Ladka Shaadi tak kunwara nahi rahta……kahin na kahin….kisi na kisi Ladki ke saath kar chukka hota hai….aur wo bhi mazze lene ke liye…tum bhi kar low….tumhari to majboori hai”
it was a long statement and she wanted to say that anyhow one day I have to have sex, certainly after marriage I will have sex with my husband and who know about him, because these days guys never remain Virgin till their marriage, they do it anyhow with some girl and that is for fun, so I should also do it and I have a genuine reason to do it.
At that time I just accepted her point of view and came back home and started doing preparations for dinner with my mom and eventually saw my mom with bit of dewed eyes which use to happen very often those days and somewhere I started preparing myself for yes.
We ended up dinner well before 9 and I tried to distract my mind but literary failed and felt like talking to Sheela Didi. It could be lust that I wanted to talk to her about all this and by now somewhere deep inside it was yes from my side. I gave a missed call to Sheela Didi from my mom’s mobile and she called back and I spoke to her in solitude and told her somehow to call me
at her place through my mom and next Sheela Didi spoke to my mom and asked her if she can send me to her place as she has some office work and I can help her in calculations. As expected my mom agreed and once again around 9:30 I was with Sheela Didi and now I was suppose to sleep with her in the night, superficially after finishing Sheela Didi’s office work.
Sheela Didi gave me sweet to eat and for some time we sat together in front of television with some TV serial which Sheela Didi use to watch. Somewhere around 10 Sheela Didi got free from watching television and muting the television asked me casually “hmmm…ab bolo kya bolna hai” “kuch nahi….” I replied back in a perplex tone,
“kuch poochhna chahti ho?” “nahi…bas aise hi…akele mein bahut tension ho rahi hai” I replied back “hmmmm….hum samajh sakte hain” Sheela Didi acknowledged my mind state and asked me something which I was not at all expecting, saying “blue film dekhogi?” she asked me if I want to see adult movie,
though I did not replied to her but she understood that I want to see it and she asked me again while getting up, “Aaj tak dekhi hai kabhi?” in reply I moved my head in no, “chalo hum dikhate hain” Sheela Didi replied with a smile on my confused gesture and started connecting her DVD player “ye DVD player bhi Kartik Ji ne hi gift kiya tha humen…. Aur ye movies bhi”
Sheela spoke again while inserting a disc into player and after that she came back to her previous location, next to me. Finally it started, it was first time I was watching a blue film, it gradually moved and after bit of kissing couple on the screen started taking off each other’s cloths and guy on the screen started sucking females breasts and slowly moved down to her crotch and buried his face between her thighs and started sucking females fuckhole.
Everything was clearly visible and my eyes were glued to the screen, I knew about this way of making pleasure through my friends even then I was little shocked to see that how that guy was licking that female’s fuckhole without any hesitation.
At the other end instead of screen Sheela Didi was looking at my expressions and sensing my mind she passed a statement with a naughty smile “Dekh low yehi hai zindagi ki sachai aur yehi sab hoga tumhare saath bhi” ….“abhi nahi hoga to Shaadi ke baad hoga”. (See this is the truth of life…all this will happen with you too…if not now then after marriage).
I cannot forget that strange feeling I went through, at that time I could not visualize myself sitting and giving full access of my fuckhole to any guy with widely spread thighs, above that the way that guy was eating that girls fuckhole was really very weird, he was going deeper and deeper into her thighs and that girl was screaming in pleasure.
Once again Sheela Didi asked me something and I was not at all expecting that, she spoke to me if I masturbate and her words were “tum ungli se karti ho kuch?” for a fraction I looked at her face and then said yes in a low voice and my reply bought smile to Sheela Didi and she spoke again “tumhara shareer poori tarah tayar hai Sambhog karne ke liye”(your body is just ready to have sex).
After that Sheela Didi got up and before that she asked me for tea, I said no to that and for next few minutes I was watching blue film alone as after using the toilet Sheela Didi was busy in making tea for herself in the kitchen. By the time she came back fucking was just started on the screen and before that I saw that female sucking that guys Penis generously on screen,
but when Sheela Didi came that guy was lying over the female with his whole Penis in females fuckhole and at that moment that scene was taking my senses off. I was wet and excited and very uneasy, I wanted to masturbate but I could not, to control my urge I told Sheela Didi to stop that movie and Sheela Didi did that and casually asked with a joking gesture
“kya hua…gili ho gayi kya” and I felt bit embarrassed as she was right, I was wet inside my panties. Once again she asked me same question while sipping her tea, whether I want to go for it or not and mentally I was at the verge of saying yes but still I wanted to know few things and first thing I asked her was “mujhe dard hoga na?” (it will pain me?)
“haan…jab pahli baar tumhare andar jayega tab hoga….” Sheela Didi paused for a second and then spoke again “hum Kartik ji ko bol denge, wo aaram se karenge” then again she spoke “waise bhi 2-3 baar mein to dard bilkul gayab ho jaayega….” (yes… when first time it will go inside you…I will speak to Kartik Ji he will do it calmly….anyhow after 2-3 times pain will disappear.
Next I asked was what if he will not pay after fucking me and my words were “agar unhon ne karne ke baad paise nahi diye to?” Sheela Didi replied that she is sure that it will not happen and she will talk about this in the beginning “I am sure aisa nahi hoga…wo aisa nahi karenge…aur hum pahle hi baat kar lenge”.
As such now I did not had anything to ask but I was still confused and Sheela Didi was sensing my mind and she spoke again to comfort me “tum tension matt low….tumhare saath kuch galat nahi hoga….” (Nothing wrong will happen to you) And after that once again she said that she will try to remain with me at that time and this time her words were
“hum koshish karenge ki jab tumhare saath ye hoga tab hum tumhaare paas hi rahen…” “koshish karoge…?” I asked Sheela Didi back in stress full voice as anyhow I wanted her to be there at that time and Sheela Didi replied and somewhat told me that she will try but if that guy (Kartik Ji) will say that he wants to fuck me in solitude then she will not be able to do anything.
“haan..koshish karenge…agar wo kahenge ki unhen akele mein karna hai to hum kya karenge” “nahi please aap mere saath hi rehna” “Ok…hum baat karenege” once again Sheela Didi replied and said she will talk about this but very next instant asked me again “to tumhari taraf se haan hai…..?” (So it is yes from your side).
Once again instead of saying yes I went silent and once again Sheela Didi tried to convince me by saying “humari maano to kar low….tumhen kuch nahi hoga….kisi ko patta bhi nahi chalega….aur tumhara ghar bikne se bach jaayega….ek baar ghar bik gaya to dobaara nahi banega” she was right Sheela Didi waited for me to reply but hardly after few seconds asked me again
“bolo baat Karen Kartik Ji se?”. Finally I moved my head in yes and next moment my heart started beating high. Sheela Didi got up instantly and searched for her mobile, I didn’t knew why was she doing that as I was not expecting that she will talk to her senior Kartik Ji at this hour. She waited for the ring to be answered while looking at me and finally spoke.
I could hear whatever she spoke from here and she started with “kaise hain?” and continued “bus hum bhi theek hain”… after that Sheela Didi spoke “aapse ek baat karni thi” and I saw her tone getting changed, she was bit hesitant in speaking but she somehow spoke again and this time her words were “ek ladki hai…Juhi(Me)… Virgin hai….aur unko paise ki zarurat hai…”
I don’t know what Kartik Ji spoke from that side I think he would have asked how much money I need and here Sheela Didi fumbled a bit and said “wo hum mil kar baat kar lenge… pahle kal hum aapko Juhi se milwa dete hain… ussi time saari baat ho jaayegi” after that more or less Sheela Didi ended the conversation and spoke to me while disconnecting the line,
“patta nahi maanegen ya nahi…tumhara amount bhi to bahut jayada hai” Sheela Didi seemed bit nervous and her words disappointed me a bit but saying “agar poora nahi denge to kitna de denge” I asked her if he will not agree for whole amount then what will he give, but Sheela Didi replied negatively on that and said “agar poora nahi denge to tum nahi karogi…” (If he will not give whole amount then you will not do it).
After that Sheela Didi scheduled her next day and told me to meet her at specific point somewhere around lunch time and because she knew that I have one, she specifically told me to wear western outfit. Bodyline jeans with a t-shirt and then added that in tight outfit my body will appear luscious and her words were “tight kapdon mein tumhara badan bhara hua dikhega”
and next thing came in my mind was, am I going to get fucked tomorrow only and I asked that by saying “wo mere saath kal hi karenge kya?” and Sheela Didi replied with “dekhte hain?”. Although I had a plan to sleep there only but don’t know why I decided to go home and slept with hell of mind state in my mom’s arm.
Next morning I got up and started getting ready while thinking about what all is going to happen with me and slowly fear of mid days meeting started rising in me, somewhere I was getting relaxed by thinking that Kartik Ji will refuse to pay me that much amount for my virginity and I do not have to do all that and somewhere I was scared of this that if he will refuse then we will lose our house.
With such mind set I came out of the house wearing what Sheela Didi told me to. I was going to collage but for very less time, I was suppose to reach somewhere before 1 and for that I have to leave collage just after couple of classes and I did that with a pounding heart.
Sheela Didi met me on decided point and place of further meeting was also fixed, it was one hi-fi restaurant and Sheela Didi told me that Kartik Ji is already there. We entered in the restaurant and took a table and Sheela Didi asked me what else I would like to order, I was not at all in state to answer that, I don’t know what I was feeling,
I was scared throughout the day and apart from that I was wet and leaking since morning by assuming things on my own. Finally after ordering light snacks to eat and couple of drinks, Sheela Didi silently showed me the person sitting bit far on the corner table and said “dekho wo hain Kartik Ji”.
Wearing stripes shirt a tall guy with good health with specs was busy in talking to someone but after knowing the fact I saw him looking at us couple of times. Food got served and we started having, I was not in condition to eat anything so I just started having my cold coffee and felt as if I have done something wrong by coming here.
Nobody in this world can understand that how I passed those 15-20 minutes in waiting to end their meeting and finally when they ended as expected I was nervous as now Kartik Ji was sitting in front of me and looking at me while talking to Sheela Didi. In beginning it was not at all that subject,
rather first they spoke about what to order more and then about the reason and for which meeting he was here and in the end after 5-10 minutes of casual conversation my subject started when Sheela introduced me to him as her neighbor saying “Ye Juhi hain…humari pados mein rahti hain”.
Kartik said hello to me with a smile and once again Sheela Didi spoke “actually inko paise ki bahut zaroorat hai…aur ye ready hain…you know wo jo maine kal aapko kaha tha” Kartik Ji acknowledged whatever Sheela Didi spoke and then asked “kitna paisa chahiye?” finally that question came in conversation which was most frightful for us but instead of telling him the amount Sheela Didi
detailed him the matter why I need that money and eventually told him that we are in very big trouble and only he can help us. After bit more of that conversation once again Kartik Ji asked Sheela Didi that how much money we need and finally Sheela Didi opened the whole amount which we were supposed to pay to the bank and then added figure she had to help us.
As expected Kartik Ji was shocked and he smiled bit sarcastically and spoke “don’t you think it’s too much…I mean…I agree that she is ready and she is also Virgin….but ye to bahut jayada hai”. That’s what I was scared of, first reaction from Kartik Ji was negative but Sheela Didi somehow tried to convince him other way and said
“hum aapse inki Virginity ke Pasie nahi maang rahe…hum aapse help maang rahe hain…samajh lijiye ye uss help ke badle apni Virginity aapko gift kar rahi hain” once again Kartik Ji smiled on Sheela Didi’s words sarcastically, he could understand what Sheela Didi spoke was just other way to say same thing and with that he took out one bundle from his laptop bag,
seemed like currency notes wrapped in news paper, it was denomination of 500, he gave that to Sheela Didi and spoke “ye fifty thousand hain…and I don’t need anything for this…just keep it…wapis matt dijiyega” with that he looked at my face and smiled a bit. I was really shocked to see that,
for me it was really very big amount but the way that guy casually took out 50,000 and gave it to Sheela Didi and said that he does not need anything for this, means he do not want to fuck me for this money, moreover we do not have to give it back even, it seemed like as if it is peanuts for him.
Sheela Didi pushed back that amount immediately with a mild smile and said “iss se humara kuch kaam nahi banega…” “Ok I will give you 50 more…kal cheque le lena..and once again I don’t need anything for that…” that was another amazing thing for me, Kartik Ji was ready to pay 50 more thousand and he did not wanted to do anything with me for that even.
I was fucked for money well before my marriage and I was introduced into the world of sex by our neighbor and my mom’s so called friend Sheela Didi. Sheela Didi was living alone beside us from very long time, since she was divorced by her husband.
The house in which she was living was her inherited property and belonged to her father, as she was the only child of her parents, after getting divorce she was living here while working in some construction company in accounts department.
For introduction I will say though it happened to me few years before my marriage but still I remember each and every moment of that time span very clearly, may be because in a way it was hardest time of my life. Although it was rough phase of my life even then there is something which is attracting me to recall that time again and again and after getting in touch of this blog
desire of remembering my that time has rose very high and that is why by writing all this I want to relive those moments. But before detailing my first sexual encounter I would like to mention that names, places and everything which can reveal my identity is changed, second I accept in the very beginning of my write up that I am very weak in this language especially grammar
and I am expecting that readers of this site will consider this fact before giving remarks in the comments column. Now to start my life experience I will say that I am Juhi, fair and good looking female who can be considered sexy as well, at present living in Delhi NCR with my husband and in-laws, basically belong to small town of U.P. Time I am talking about, I was around 20-21 and my body was just ready to experience manly treatment.
Because of financial crunch after doing first year of my graduation I was thinking about ending up my studies. I can easily say that from the time I was conscious to know things around, my father was more or less non-working, he was deeply and somewhat madly involved into drinking and gambling and opposite to that my mother was working up to her maximum ability.
Apart from doing some clerical job in some private company, later at home she use to make pickles and Papads to sell in limited area. All in all I grew up in somewhat financial struggle and as time passed our problems went on increasing because my mother was failing in protecting her hard earned money from my farther, he was not bothered about my school fee or even for the basic food we needed.
Later I was almost at the verge of appearing into my senior secondary examinations, which is 10+2 when suddenly, my father expired because of overdose of some narcotic. Although since my childhood he was always a liability on mom even then it was big shock for us. Anyhow life moved on and now we, I and my mom were getting into some financial comfort but very soon another shock staggered our senses.
The house in which we were living was mortgaged by my father for money. My mom was totally unaware of this fact and now we were suppose to pay few lacs to nearby co-operative bank to release papers and at that time we could not see anything which could save us. After disposing of that property once we thought about going to our uncle’s place (maternal ) but both of my uncles behaved reluctantly on this.
We tried borrowing money from my father’s brother but because of my father we did not had healthy relation with them so they also denied helping us. In that span tiny thing which went bit positive for us was anyhow by requesting or you can say begging my mom succeeded in taking couple of more months to pay off from bank manager, but still I will say that all in all we could not see any way out of this problem as time was running fast.
At that time I was nearly at the end of first year of graduation and I could clearly see that I will not be able continue my studies as now after losing a house my mom will be having a liability of paying off the rent. Now after detailing bit of my personal and financial crises, I would like to take readers straight to the incident. As I said in the beginning, I was bought into fucking for money by Sheela Didi.
Although she was much younger then my mom but she can be considered my mom’s closest friend, she was having very down to earth nature and I have always considered her my elder sister and use to address her Didi. When this dreadful fear of losing our house was running in our life,
apart from our relatives to whom we asked for help it was just Sheela Didi who knew everything happening around us and since she knew that we are in trouble, she was the only one who promised us to help but what she could do was few thousands which were not at all sufficient to save our house and panic was increasing every day.
I remember it was Friday early morning when I went to her house to borrow some sugar and she asked me about the status of money, whether my mom succeeding in arranging money from somewhere and I said no to that. She gave me sugar which I asked for and once again asked me and this time it was about my studies, that how it is going and I sarcastically replied that, soon it will also end.
She told me not to worry about my studies and assured me that she will look after my fees. I smiled mildly to thank her with dewed eyes, Sheela Didi looked into my eyes for few seconds and somewhat gave a thought to what she was about to speak and finally spoke with some hesitation, while looking straight into my eyes,
from her side it was the beginning of talking to me about that indecent proposal and I still remember that whole conversation word to word and her first sentence in this context was “waise tum chaaho to sab theek ho sakta hai…..” (Everything can be fine, but if you agree) I remained silent with a question mark on my face and before I would have asked her about what she said,
Sheela Didi spoke again “hum do-teen din se soch rahe the tumse ye baat karne ki” (I was thinking about talking to you from last 2-3 days) “kya?” I asked her back in curiosity, once again for few seconds she went silent and looked into my innocent eyes, I think she could not decide how to speak to me about this and in that confusing mind set she asked me “tum collage jaa rahi ho na?”
I said yes to it, “ok..evening mein baat karte hain” she tried to avoid talking to me in that context at that moment but I was eager to know so I asked her again, but she sent me back to my home and told me to come after getting ready for collage and specifically told me not to talk to my mom about this.
I came back to her place after leaving my home for collage, by now Sheela Didi was also more or less ready to go to her work place. She made me sit in her dining area and started talking to me about that once again she started with a same sentence “Dekho tum chaaho to sab theek ho sakta hai…” with same sort of hesitation and then after a small pause she added “saara paisa arrange ho jaayega”
(whole money will be arranged) “Kaise?” I asked her back “Dekho tum humari chhoti behan jaisi ho… aur humen tumse se ye kahte hue achha to nahi lag raha par ab situation hi kuch aisi hai” (See you are like my younger sister and I really don’t feel like talking to you all this, but situation is just like that)
Sheela Didi spoke before going to main course and I continued looking at her as if I am waiting for her to speak exactly what she wants to speak and finally she uttered “Dekho tum ladki ho…tumko thoda sa compromise karna padega” (you are a girl, and you have to compromise a bit) her words skipped my heart beat,
I somewhat guessed what she meant with that but still I wanted to listen her and I remained silent and once again Sheela Didi spoke, rather asked me whether I have understood by saying “tum samajh rahi ho hum kya kah rahe hain” and I moved my head bit in yes. “tumhe maalom hai na ye kya hota hain…aur kaise hota hai?”
Sheela Didi asked me again and this time I remained unmoved and just continued looking into her eyes with a pounding heart, Sheela Didi spoke again and somewhat explained me exactly what it is and how it goes by saying “Aadmi log humari Yoni mein apna Ling daalte hain aur enjoy karte hain” (males put there gentile in our Vargina and enjoy)
and again remained silent for few seconds and then she asked me again in soft voice “maaloom hai na tumko?” this time I moved my head in yes and like before continued looking at her face and Sheela Didi spoke again, it was a long statement and as I said I remember everything clean and clear her exact words were
“dekho humen to aur koi raasta nazar nahi aata…humse jitna ho sakta hai hum help kar dengei…par uss se kuch kaam nahi banega”. I swallowed my saliva while accepting at least this fact that the amount which she can give us is not at all sufficient. “Soch lo…evening tak jawab de dena….aur iss baare mein apni Maa se mat baat karna” (think about it… answer me by the evening… and don’t talk to your mom about all this).
Once again I moved my head in yes and our conversation ended there for the time being, Sheela Didi got up and moved to her work place and before leaving once again she tried to comfort me for my studies and spoke “apni padhai ki tension matt lena..wo hum sambhal lenge”.
After that I moved to collage and that day totally failed to concentrate on my studies, at that time from my side it was certainly No but don’t know why I still wanted to talk to Sheela Didi about this. I came back home well before Sheela Didi and remained in my room without eating anything,
I wanted to sleep but my eyes were wide open may be because I could not stop thinking about Sheela Didi’s proposal and truly speaking, while being alone in the house I somewhat visualized myself getting fucked. Those days porn movies and internet were not easily accessible, at least not to girls like me and technically whatever I knew about this man woman relation,
I knew it through my text book of Biology of I think 9th or 10th standard, through my friends and whatever Hindi movies showed me. Slowly with every passing minute thought of getting fucked started empowering my senses and I started getting wet and as I was bit into masturbating I tried to end up my urge and calmed down after some rubbing of my fuckhole and slept for a while.
When I got up Sheela Didi was yet to come but not much time was left, I waited for her in the balcony and finally saw her coming. By the time I thought about going to her place my mom also arrived from her work lace and I remained at home.
After some time Sheela Didi herself came to my place with some snacks and had tea with my mom and told her to keep faith on god and after chit chatting with my mom for nearly half an hour she told me to come to her place in front of mom to help her in some way.
I came to her place and once again we were sitting on same chairs and this time Sheela Didi started the topic by saying “fir kya socha tumne?” I wanted to say clear No even then I took a longer way and spoke “Mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha…main ye sabb nahi karna chaahti” (I cannot think properly…I don’t want to do all this) for which Sheela Didi replied “Hum bhi nahi chaahte tum ye karo…par aur koi raasta nahi hai”
(even I don’t want you to do all this..but there is no way out) I accepted her statement without uttering anything, just from my expressions. Once again Sheela Didi started and this time she answered me whatever questions were running in my mind and she started by saying “Dekho hum tumko RANDI nahi banna rahe…”
(See I am not trying to make you prostitute) I was bit shocked with a word RANDI she used, but she continued “tumko sirf ek aadmi ke saath baar baar sona hai…aur tumhaare saath jo karega wo hi karega” (you just have to sleep with one man again and again…and whatever will happen with you, only he will) once again while listening her I was just looking at Sheela Didi’s face with pounding heart.
Sheela Didi sensed my fear and caressed my cheek with affection and spoke again “Hum tumko kisi galat Aadmi ke pass nahi bhej rahe…..wo bahut achhe hain” (I am not sending you to any wrong man, he is very nice) with a small pause Sheela Didi spoke again “aur hum koshish karenge uss time pe tumhare saath hi rahen”.
I don’t know if I was shocked with her statement, she meant that she will try to be with me at that time, but in that confused state I asked her about that person to whom she is sending me to get fucked by asking “kaun hai wo?” “Humare senior hain…Kartik Ji” once again with a tiny pause she spoke again and detailed me bit about that person “rank mein senior hain….age mein humse thode chhote hain…”
Sheela Didi was ending there but with bit of smile she spoke again “aur tumhari tarah wo bhi humko Didi hi bulate hain”. That was bit surprising for me and I asked her back “aap unse aisi baat karoge?” (you will talk all this to him. Once again Sheela Didi smiled a bit and went silent for few seconds and then spoke
“Dekho tum apne liye Haan bolo ya Na bolo…lekin humari ye baat kisi ko matt batana” (see whatever you decide for yourself, don’t reveal my this secret to anybody) “kya?” I asked her back “hum unke saath regularly SAMBHOG karte hain”. That was another shock for me; Sheela Didi told me that she is sexually involved with that person whose name was Kartik.
As such I could not think of uttering anything at that instant and once again Sheela Didi spoke again “Dekho hum ye mainly apni body ki desire poori karne ke liye karte hain… “ “ab wo humare senior hain to company se thoda bahut benefit dilwa dete hain” Sheela Didi paused there but then spoke again
“rather unki wajah se humko bahut saare benefit mille hain.. unhonne humko company mein permanent karwa diya hai… humko Bonus milna shuru ho gaya hai … PF ka bhi benefit milta hai...paid leaves milti hain…aur bol rahe the iss saal humen increment bhi achha dilwaayenge…. isske alawa wo humko gifts bhi dete rahte hain”
Sheela Didi detailed me whatever benefits she got from her senior by getting herself fucked and I continued listening her. Truly speaking for me it was altogether new face of Sheela Didi, I knew her as a god fearing female who even never skip morning worship and never use to go out of house without a spiritual Tilak on her forehead, but in real life she was somewhat came out as slut.
I was somewhat lost for few seconds and while looking at her face I could not think of anything accept this that she lays on the bed of her senior for professional benefits. Somewhere all this was charging me as well, I was feeling bit aroused and could feel bit of wetness in my panties from all this but still there was some sort of fear which was dwelling in my mind and I was yet
not convinced to say yes to get on bed with a person she was talking about but certainly I wanted to talk to her about all this and next moment Sheela Didi asked me same thing, that what all I want to know by asking “aur jo kuch jaan na chahti ho…freely puchh low” and next thing I asked her was about the money I needed and my question was “will he give me whole amount”
and my words were “wo itne pasie de denge?” and Sheela Didi’s reply was “hum baat karenge….I think de dena chahiye….unke liye koi badi baat nahi hai… Civil engineer hain aur unke income ke do teen source hain….ek lakh to yehin se lete hain”. ( I will talk to him, I think he will give it…it is not an big issue for him…he is civil engineer and he has 2-3 sources of income…he is getting one lack from here only)
At that time as I heard his salary amount I was stunned and to convince me further Sheela Didi spoke again “Biwi bache hain nahin…single hain…bas life ko enjoy karna chahte hain”. For a while Sheela Didi ended there and asked me if I want to have water and I said yes to it. She made lemonade and I gulped whole glass within couple of minutes as my throat was totally dried up.
Once again Sheela Didi started by saying “Vishwaas karo….agar aur koi raasta hota to hum tumhen ye karne ke liye kabhi nahi kahte” (trust me if we would have any other way…then I would have not spoken to you about this) she paused and then spoke again “aur hum Kartik Ji ko achhe se jaante hain…. iss liye tumhen unke pass lejaa rahe hain…. tumhen koi problem nahi hogi……wo bahut achhe hain”
(And I know Kartik Ji very well…that is why I am taking you to him…you will not face any problem…he is very nice) “achhe log aisa kaam karte hain kya?” (Nice people do all this?) I replied back in reflex and my words pinched her and Sheela Didi’s expressions changed a bit and she spoke in somewhat teaching tone,
“dekho…aajkal koi Mahatma nahi hota… aur sex har ek ko chahiye hota hai… humen bhi chahiye tha iss liye humne unko haan bola tha” (See…these days no one is saint…and everyone needs sex…even I needed…that is why I said yes to him) Sheela Didi really did not liked statement I passed for her senior and she continued detailing me about him
“Kartik Ji RANDIBAAJI nahi karte… wo sirf humare saath karte hain aur hum sirf unke saath karte hain…aur wo bhi apni marzi se”. I could feel that Sheela Didi was hardcore fan of this person and I was somewhat realizing my mistake by saying that but I remained silent and continued listening Sheela Didi while looking at her facial expressions and she spoke again in same aggressive tone
“aur abhi humen ye bhi nahi patta wo haan bhi bolenge ya nahi…..unhone humen ek baar kaha tha ki unko Virgin ladki ke saath karne ka bahut mann hai, bass iss liye hum thode se hopeful hain”. (Right now I don’t even know whether he will agree for this or not…once he told me that he wants to have it with Virgin girl…that is why I am hopeful).
I moved my eyes from her face to accept my mistake and that calmed her down a bit. As I looked up, once again at her face and Sheela Didi asked me “tum Kunwaari to ho na….?kahin kisi ladke saath kuch ki to nahi ho?” (I hope you are Virgin…or you have done something with any guy) and I replied with a no in low voice along with knobbing my head.
Once again Sheela Didi told me to think saying “Soch low…kal subah batta dena” (think…tell me in the morning). Certainly by then it was not yes from my side, but something was positive in me about this and may be that is why I asked her that how I will justify the money I will get, to my mom.
For that Sheela Didi said that she will manage all that and told me that she will tell my mom that she has taken a interest free loan from her office and she will pay it off slowly. Then she told me that her senior Kartik Ji might not pay whole amount in one shot, so for the moment after adding her savings she will somehow manage at least 25% of whole amount
and she was somewhat sure that if we will pay off 25% amount at the moment then we will get some more time from the bank and further told me that even Kartik Ji can also help to get us more time because he knows many senior people in that bank. After spending some more time finally I came back home and that is why my mom called me to help her in kitchen,
unless I would have stayed there for one more hour and the way Sheela Didi was trying to convince I would have said yes then and there. Once again when I was about to leave Sheela Didi told me not to tell all this to my mom and then added one nasty statement in this context which was certainly truth and her words were
“Dekho ek na ek din to ye hona hi hai…tum Shaadi ke baad apne patti ke saath to SAMBHOG karogi hi….” “aur uska kya patta…aaj kal koi Ladka Shaadi tak kunwara nahi rahta……kahin na kahin….kisi na kisi Ladki ke saath kar chukka hota hai….aur wo bhi mazze lene ke liye…tum bhi kar low….tumhari to majboori hai”
it was a long statement and she wanted to say that anyhow one day I have to have sex, certainly after marriage I will have sex with my husband and who know about him, because these days guys never remain Virgin till their marriage, they do it anyhow with some girl and that is for fun, so I should also do it and I have a genuine reason to do it.
At that time I just accepted her point of view and came back home and started doing preparations for dinner with my mom and eventually saw my mom with bit of dewed eyes which use to happen very often those days and somewhere I started preparing myself for yes.
We ended up dinner well before 9 and I tried to distract my mind but literary failed and felt like talking to Sheela Didi. It could be lust that I wanted to talk to her about all this and by now somewhere deep inside it was yes from my side. I gave a missed call to Sheela Didi from my mom’s mobile and she called back and I spoke to her in solitude and told her somehow to call me
at her place through my mom and next Sheela Didi spoke to my mom and asked her if she can send me to her place as she has some office work and I can help her in calculations. As expected my mom agreed and once again around 9:30 I was with Sheela Didi and now I was suppose to sleep with her in the night, superficially after finishing Sheela Didi’s office work.
Sheela Didi gave me sweet to eat and for some time we sat together in front of television with some TV serial which Sheela Didi use to watch. Somewhere around 10 Sheela Didi got free from watching television and muting the television asked me casually “hmmm…ab bolo kya bolna hai” “kuch nahi….” I replied back in a perplex tone,
“kuch poochhna chahti ho?” “nahi…bas aise hi…akele mein bahut tension ho rahi hai” I replied back “hmmmm….hum samajh sakte hain” Sheela Didi acknowledged my mind state and asked me something which I was not at all expecting, saying “blue film dekhogi?” she asked me if I want to see adult movie,
though I did not replied to her but she understood that I want to see it and she asked me again while getting up, “Aaj tak dekhi hai kabhi?” in reply I moved my head in no, “chalo hum dikhate hain” Sheela Didi replied with a smile on my confused gesture and started connecting her DVD player “ye DVD player bhi Kartik Ji ne hi gift kiya tha humen…. Aur ye movies bhi”
Sheela spoke again while inserting a disc into player and after that she came back to her previous location, next to me. Finally it started, it was first time I was watching a blue film, it gradually moved and after bit of kissing couple on the screen started taking off each other’s cloths and guy on the screen started sucking females breasts and slowly moved down to her crotch and buried his face between her thighs and started sucking females fuckhole.
Everything was clearly visible and my eyes were glued to the screen, I knew about this way of making pleasure through my friends even then I was little shocked to see that how that guy was licking that female’s fuckhole without any hesitation.
At the other end instead of screen Sheela Didi was looking at my expressions and sensing my mind she passed a statement with a naughty smile “Dekh low yehi hai zindagi ki sachai aur yehi sab hoga tumhare saath bhi” ….“abhi nahi hoga to Shaadi ke baad hoga”. (See this is the truth of life…all this will happen with you too…if not now then after marriage).
I cannot forget that strange feeling I went through, at that time I could not visualize myself sitting and giving full access of my fuckhole to any guy with widely spread thighs, above that the way that guy was eating that girls fuckhole was really very weird, he was going deeper and deeper into her thighs and that girl was screaming in pleasure.
Once again Sheela Didi asked me something and I was not at all expecting that, she spoke to me if I masturbate and her words were “tum ungli se karti ho kuch?” for a fraction I looked at her face and then said yes in a low voice and my reply bought smile to Sheela Didi and she spoke again “tumhara shareer poori tarah tayar hai Sambhog karne ke liye”(your body is just ready to have sex).
After that Sheela Didi got up and before that she asked me for tea, I said no to that and for next few minutes I was watching blue film alone as after using the toilet Sheela Didi was busy in making tea for herself in the kitchen. By the time she came back fucking was just started on the screen and before that I saw that female sucking that guys Penis generously on screen,
but when Sheela Didi came that guy was lying over the female with his whole Penis in females fuckhole and at that moment that scene was taking my senses off. I was wet and excited and very uneasy, I wanted to masturbate but I could not, to control my urge I told Sheela Didi to stop that movie and Sheela Didi did that and casually asked with a joking gesture
“kya hua…gili ho gayi kya” and I felt bit embarrassed as she was right, I was wet inside my panties. Once again she asked me same question while sipping her tea, whether I want to go for it or not and mentally I was at the verge of saying yes but still I wanted to know few things and first thing I asked her was “mujhe dard hoga na?” (it will pain me?)
“haan…jab pahli baar tumhare andar jayega tab hoga….” Sheela Didi paused for a second and then spoke again “hum Kartik ji ko bol denge, wo aaram se karenge” then again she spoke “waise bhi 2-3 baar mein to dard bilkul gayab ho jaayega….” (yes… when first time it will go inside you…I will speak to Kartik Ji he will do it calmly….anyhow after 2-3 times pain will disappear.
Next I asked was what if he will not pay after fucking me and my words were “agar unhon ne karne ke baad paise nahi diye to?” Sheela Didi replied that she is sure that it will not happen and she will talk about this in the beginning “I am sure aisa nahi hoga…wo aisa nahi karenge…aur hum pahle hi baat kar lenge”.
As such now I did not had anything to ask but I was still confused and Sheela Didi was sensing my mind and she spoke again to comfort me “tum tension matt low….tumhare saath kuch galat nahi hoga….” (Nothing wrong will happen to you) And after that once again she said that she will try to remain with me at that time and this time her words were
“hum koshish karenge ki jab tumhare saath ye hoga tab hum tumhaare paas hi rahen…” “koshish karoge…?” I asked Sheela Didi back in stress full voice as anyhow I wanted her to be there at that time and Sheela Didi replied and somewhat told me that she will try but if that guy (Kartik Ji) will say that he wants to fuck me in solitude then she will not be able to do anything.
“haan..koshish karenge…agar wo kahenge ki unhen akele mein karna hai to hum kya karenge” “nahi please aap mere saath hi rehna” “Ok…hum baat karenege” once again Sheela Didi replied and said she will talk about this but very next instant asked me again “to tumhari taraf se haan hai…..?” (So it is yes from your side).
Once again instead of saying yes I went silent and once again Sheela Didi tried to convince me by saying “humari maano to kar low….tumhen kuch nahi hoga….kisi ko patta bhi nahi chalega….aur tumhara ghar bikne se bach jaayega….ek baar ghar bik gaya to dobaara nahi banega” she was right Sheela Didi waited for me to reply but hardly after few seconds asked me again
“bolo baat Karen Kartik Ji se?”. Finally I moved my head in yes and next moment my heart started beating high. Sheela Didi got up instantly and searched for her mobile, I didn’t knew why was she doing that as I was not expecting that she will talk to her senior Kartik Ji at this hour. She waited for the ring to be answered while looking at me and finally spoke.
I could hear whatever she spoke from here and she started with “kaise hain?” and continued “bus hum bhi theek hain”… after that Sheela Didi spoke “aapse ek baat karni thi” and I saw her tone getting changed, she was bit hesitant in speaking but she somehow spoke again and this time her words were “ek ladki hai…Juhi(Me)… Virgin hai….aur unko paise ki zarurat hai…”
I don’t know what Kartik Ji spoke from that side I think he would have asked how much money I need and here Sheela Didi fumbled a bit and said “wo hum mil kar baat kar lenge… pahle kal hum aapko Juhi se milwa dete hain… ussi time saari baat ho jaayegi” after that more or less Sheela Didi ended the conversation and spoke to me while disconnecting the line,
“patta nahi maanegen ya nahi…tumhara amount bhi to bahut jayada hai” Sheela Didi seemed bit nervous and her words disappointed me a bit but saying “agar poora nahi denge to kitna de denge” I asked her if he will not agree for whole amount then what will he give, but Sheela Didi replied negatively on that and said “agar poora nahi denge to tum nahi karogi…” (If he will not give whole amount then you will not do it).
After that Sheela Didi scheduled her next day and told me to meet her at specific point somewhere around lunch time and because she knew that I have one, she specifically told me to wear western outfit. Bodyline jeans with a t-shirt and then added that in tight outfit my body will appear luscious and her words were “tight kapdon mein tumhara badan bhara hua dikhega”
and next thing came in my mind was, am I going to get fucked tomorrow only and I asked that by saying “wo mere saath kal hi karenge kya?” and Sheela Didi replied with “dekhte hain?”. Although I had a plan to sleep there only but don’t know why I decided to go home and slept with hell of mind state in my mom’s arm.
Next morning I got up and started getting ready while thinking about what all is going to happen with me and slowly fear of mid days meeting started rising in me, somewhere I was getting relaxed by thinking that Kartik Ji will refuse to pay me that much amount for my virginity and I do not have to do all that and somewhere I was scared of this that if he will refuse then we will lose our house.
With such mind set I came out of the house wearing what Sheela Didi told me to. I was going to collage but for very less time, I was suppose to reach somewhere before 1 and for that I have to leave collage just after couple of classes and I did that with a pounding heart.
Sheela Didi met me on decided point and place of further meeting was also fixed, it was one hi-fi restaurant and Sheela Didi told me that Kartik Ji is already there. We entered in the restaurant and took a table and Sheela Didi asked me what else I would like to order, I was not at all in state to answer that, I don’t know what I was feeling,
I was scared throughout the day and apart from that I was wet and leaking since morning by assuming things on my own. Finally after ordering light snacks to eat and couple of drinks, Sheela Didi silently showed me the person sitting bit far on the corner table and said “dekho wo hain Kartik Ji”.
Wearing stripes shirt a tall guy with good health with specs was busy in talking to someone but after knowing the fact I saw him looking at us couple of times. Food got served and we started having, I was not in condition to eat anything so I just started having my cold coffee and felt as if I have done something wrong by coming here.
Nobody in this world can understand that how I passed those 15-20 minutes in waiting to end their meeting and finally when they ended as expected I was nervous as now Kartik Ji was sitting in front of me and looking at me while talking to Sheela Didi. In beginning it was not at all that subject,
rather first they spoke about what to order more and then about the reason and for which meeting he was here and in the end after 5-10 minutes of casual conversation my subject started when Sheela introduced me to him as her neighbor saying “Ye Juhi hain…humari pados mein rahti hain”.
Kartik said hello to me with a smile and once again Sheela Didi spoke “actually inko paise ki bahut zaroorat hai…aur ye ready hain…you know wo jo maine kal aapko kaha tha” Kartik Ji acknowledged whatever Sheela Didi spoke and then asked “kitna paisa chahiye?” finally that question came in conversation which was most frightful for us but instead of telling him the amount Sheela Didi
detailed him the matter why I need that money and eventually told him that we are in very big trouble and only he can help us. After bit more of that conversation once again Kartik Ji asked Sheela Didi that how much money we need and finally Sheela Didi opened the whole amount which we were supposed to pay to the bank and then added figure she had to help us.
As expected Kartik Ji was shocked and he smiled bit sarcastically and spoke “don’t you think it’s too much…I mean…I agree that she is ready and she is also Virgin….but ye to bahut jayada hai”. That’s what I was scared of, first reaction from Kartik Ji was negative but Sheela Didi somehow tried to convince him other way and said
“hum aapse inki Virginity ke Pasie nahi maang rahe…hum aapse help maang rahe hain…samajh lijiye ye uss help ke badle apni Virginity aapko gift kar rahi hain” once again Kartik Ji smiled on Sheela Didi’s words sarcastically, he could understand what Sheela Didi spoke was just other way to say same thing and with that he took out one bundle from his laptop bag,
seemed like currency notes wrapped in news paper, it was denomination of 500, he gave that to Sheela Didi and spoke “ye fifty thousand hain…and I don’t need anything for this…just keep it…wapis matt dijiyega” with that he looked at my face and smiled a bit. I was really shocked to see that,
for me it was really very big amount but the way that guy casually took out 50,000 and gave it to Sheela Didi and said that he does not need anything for this, means he do not want to fuck me for this money, moreover we do not have to give it back even, it seemed like as if it is peanuts for him.
Sheela Didi pushed back that amount immediately with a mild smile and said “iss se humara kuch kaam nahi banega…” “Ok I will give you 50 more…kal cheque le lena..and once again I don’t need anything for that…” that was another amazing thing for me, Kartik Ji was ready to pay 50 more thousand and he did not wanted to do anything with me for that even.
